You would think...

You would think that on our third adoption I would be more patient, that I would know waiting is part of the process. All adoptions no matter what have some waiting, and that this adoption will be no different. Intellectually I know this, emotionally, I want my baby's referral YESTERDAY!
I want to know her name. I want to send her and her foster family a gift and photos. I want to be doing something to bring her home, not just sitting 13th on the list and......waiting. I want it to be November or December, as according to my social worker, I will be more likely to get a referral. I want to know her face, and her smile. I want to know how old she is so I can start to shop for cute clothes! I want to know her. I'm not trying to complain, or sound like someone who is whining "it's not fair....", I have not been wronged. I just want to know my child. The anticipation is maddening.